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So, for the past week I've been sick. Yup, the works. Body aches, sore throat, extremely running nose, no energy. And my heart sank. Each day I told myself that I would feel better and still tried to formulate what I could do workout wise...all for naught. All my plans of how I wanted things to go are now out the window and my new plan is to not have a plan. Sigh.

I'm trying not to freak out about all the workouts I missed and how I'll have to rebuild a little to get back where I was. Right now, I'm just hoping to make it through the day w/out having to take a nap.

One good thing happen, though. My knee feels great. The swelling is gone and there is no more grinding and popping. Even my plantar fascitis feels a whole lot better. yea.

Tomorrow I leave for Rocky Point, MX. I go a couple times a year w/ my church to build houses. It is a wonderful time and I am looking forward to it. The down side is I won't be able to do my workouts, which will set me back even more after being sick...still, I'm trying not to worry about it. The up side is there is an ocean...so, I'm going to try an ocean swim. What I really want to try and figure out is what makes me freak out in Open Water. My friends Rob and Laura will be close by in a kayak, so I'll focus on why my heart races, why I can't seem to put my face in the water, and why I can't catch my breath. I love swimming so much and it just drives me nuts that in open water I'm a complete mess. At Soma in '06 I was so confindent about the swim until I hit the water, then I was a total mess. And pissed! I was back stroking yelling at myself...the people on Tempe Town bridge must have thought I was crazy. And I haven't been in open water since then...so time in the ocean is needed and I am very glad for the opportunity.

So, here I am with six weeks of time left before the race, no plan, afraid to have any expectations, and a body that isn't cooperating w/ me. You know, Jon always said triathletes have more excuses than anyone else, and I keep thinking of that...he also said he was the King of excuses...and I think of that, too. And I think it is the unknown of what race day will bring that makes us say why we might not do well...because we all really, really want to do well, right? Whatever that means for each person...for me, I want to finish with a flourish. I want to swim my best, bike my best, and run my best and be able to say my body was trained for that race. It's the if only's that piss me off..."If only I hadn't bonked my knee, gotten sick, wasted 2 weeks..." My cousin says she admires me for doing these races when I'm never fully trained...she says I finish out of sheer determination and will Power...and that didn't sit well w/ me at all, which surprised her. "Why?" she asked, "why would that not encourage you?".

"Just once," I said, "I'd like to not have to persevere through something."

I'll let you know how the ocean swim goes...

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